today class really half gone . haix ..

hehe , if not for those who read my blog will be bored:( hehe

sun is the day for me and my daughter , granddaughter and grandson ..

hehe .. yesterday should went to navy open hse de ..

but was being told to wear black pans.

i dun even have pans, dun even say black pans lol ...

so me and corina intent not to go ...

sms my gals early morning said tat we not going, cause no black pans, then andrea said can wear sch skirt sia ..

got shock, but it's too late .. alr, 7 plus.. haix .. so fgi...

gotten call from my grandson , ask to met up .. so i met him .. do something before work, help my daddy check something..

so sms andrew telling him i late, after sending and i just put my phone down abt to turn to take towel to bath, he replied,.. super fast sia .. ( hope no more yuan yuan from him haix hehe )

anw, today work fun ..got my daughter and the rest to company me ...

going home time, called my son, talk abt something important, just hope he dun give me empty promise ba :( alright son :)

now only awaiting tml ! yes ! hope i can tahan ..

waiting for new photo :) hehe

once again, i did something i should not do ..

i cried again ..

i told myself i wont do tat again, but why? why did i do it again ...

do u know how i feel when i saw ur msn chat pop out , i was even more happy when i saw the word hello !

but IT WAS NOT U !!!


i hope u were the one who talk to me ..

my heart really shattered ....

we were once so close, yet we break apart now ?

i seriously dun know wat u are thinking,

do i really dun know u well after this 6 yr of knowing each other ??

i thought i know u very well, know u more than ur gf know u..

but i feel tat now, through out this 6 yr, we din really understand each other ....

is tat the reason why ? seriously, i wan an ans......
u push me to heaven, but pulling me down to hell as well..

i have to act as if nth happen, but the truth is , inside me i'm really shattering....
and my dear daddy can still say something tat pist me off..

i'm really heart- broken ..........
really start bursting out tears when sandy hug me, i really holding my tears,

but thx sandy for giving me the hug, at least i got a shoulder to lean for while,
saw daddy, things the same, but still cant hold my tears, burst out tears , he told me not to cry, but i understand, he busy..

work work and work can only make me forget everything, forget u ....

after a while, manage to calm myself down with the company of work,

seriously, i think the way i can forget u is tat, i have to work on something tat keep my mind working ....

only then, u shall be out of my mind ！

我只能说我是在逼我自己忘记你...
其实我根本没办法忘记你.....
我以为我很了解你..
其实，我就好比不认识你....
应为可能我根本一点都不了解你......
我注定要矢去你这个朋友.....

我认了!

thx alot sandy, andrew ,zeng yong , yvonne , sakilah... for being there with me today :)
and zhi yang too, even though i make him go home , but i still feel bad...

haix ..


i love u all lots...
not forgetting my gals in sch .. love them too :)

class finishing soon :)