well, i guess i got a lot to say but i do not know where to start...
retribution, i guess so... but i give in to fate alr..
i ignore u last time, u wan do the same to me, i treat it as fate..
i really dun wan to spend my time wasting on all these..
is just useless.. and is just seems silly by doing tat.. haix..
i keep telling myself to let it go, but eventually i think i did not..
i just use all my sch and work to cover the other side of me..
i guess i'm just like a ordinary person who tends to keep things.. i know i being selfish because there are so many other ard me who loves me so, but ....
somethings are just so difficult to open up...
especially personal stuffs...
haix...
forget it, letting it go ( i hope i can)
anw, good news upon all, i was promoted.. it was a sudden news, although lianshen has announce to me ard early feb, but this is just to rush..
being a supervisor is not easy job, more work, more load.
i'm so used to being the way i work, asking me to supervise staffs and look after newbies, it's gonna take me a while to use to it.
i'm a soft- hearted person, how to control people lei? i'm use to the people control me life, so asking me to change now, really gonna takes me time.. and i always keep telling myself to be firm, be fierce, but i just cant ah... i dun think anyone seem me really angry personally before lo.. unless really i'm angry.. at work i where got really scold and fierce to people one, hahaha..
but, let this be a training ba...
jia yo :) u can de :)
It been another few weeks where i update my blog..
so many thing seems to happen, and i'm really tired too.. mentally tired as well...
sch, work etc.. it just seem quite difficult for me to handle but i'm trying :)
things go well and bad for everything.. sometimes good sometimes bad...
needed my sleep, but just seem that no matter how long i sleep, it just doesn't seems to be enough!
body getting weaker but still hanging there, dark rings getting worsen, doesn't seem to shows effects even i sleep early...
tml exam, just wish me good luck so that i dun have to retake module..
it just seems scary and i should be revising now but yet i'm blogging now...
shutting myself today from everyone, not gonna let anyone find me.... no msg, mo call, no watsapp.... the life of nth for today.. not even a call from outlet can make me work..
anw, some things keep running my mind, thinking that should you believe in rumors? the things is i don't think we should even.... i just sometimes find it ridiculous to believe in all these, especially like when someone talking behind your back saying she and he bla bla, i think she like tat guy, all this are just shit man... cases tat i seen at work is different as i know we all joking, and we saying infront and the person just blush and shy.. but we know tat we just joking... but thing tat happen to me was the other way... behind my back, 散布谣言.. so what i'm closed to him? being close to him doesn't mean anything.. and it not a crime.. i treat him as a good fren tat why........ if being close to a oppsite sex mean u like tat person, let me tell u, i think there will have a lot couple wif many relationship going on.... it also shows tat u all are not mature thinking...
i choose not to care abt this, although i din say .. but pls , i'm not blind... i can see wat u all doing behind my back... i choose not to care because this is not true, i can have the courage to stand for myself to face u, but i think u were running from me, u choose to believe them? i don't know and i cant stop u.. the way how u treated me after this incident shows u choose to believe them, u didn't talk much to me after tat because u choose to believe them and it shows tat u cannot face me where this is just rumors.....
i guess i'm ok wif me because i don't blame u, as tat shows tat u all don't really know me well yet... i can be nice and sweet to everyone, to girls or to boys... call u baby dear or even darling i'm alright.. because to me it just a form or addressing, but if u all wan to infer these wrongly.. GO AHEAD <3
over there i prepared to have frens that comes and go...
cheers! :)
Is been three year where ur present still lies at my television top, is the thing tat i always first see when i wake up..
I didnt say doesnt mean i forget......
