once again, i did something i should not do ..

i cried again ..

i told myself i wont do tat again, but why? why did i do it again ...

do u know how i feel when i saw ur msn chat pop out , i was even more happy when i saw the word hello !

but IT WAS NOT U !!!


i hope u were the one who talk to me ..

my heart really shattered ....

we were once so close, yet we break apart now ?

i seriously dun know wat u are thinking,

do i really dun know u well after this 6 yr of knowing each other ??

i thought i know u very well, know u more than ur gf know u..

but i feel tat now, through out this 6 yr, we din really understand each other ....

is tat the reason why ? seriously, i wan an ans......
u push me to heaven, but pulling me down to hell as well..

i have to act as if nth happen, but the truth is , inside me i'm really shattering....
and my dear daddy can still say something tat pist me off..

i'm really heart- broken ..........
really start bursting out tears when sandy hug me, i really holding my tears,

but thx sandy for giving me the hug, at least i got a shoulder to lean for while,
saw daddy, things the same, but still cant hold my tears, burst out tears , he told me not to cry, but i understand, he busy..

work work and work can only make me forget everything, forget u ....

after a while, manage to calm myself down with the company of work,

seriously, i think the way i can forget u is tat, i have to work on something tat keep my mind working ....

only then, u shall be out of my mind ！

我只能说我是在逼我自己忘记你...
其实我根本没办法忘记你.....
我以为我很了解你..
其实，我就好比不认识你....
应为可能我根本一点都不了解你......
我注定要矢去你这个朋友.....

我认了!

thx alot sandy, andrew ,zeng yong , yvonne , sakilah... for being there with me today :)
and zhi yang too, even though i make him go home , but i still feel bad...

haix ..


i love u all lots...
not forgetting my gals in sch .. love them too :)