It been another few weeks where i update my blog..
so many thing seems to happen, and i'm really tired too.. mentally tired as well...
sch, work etc.. it just seem quite difficult for me to handle but i'm trying :)
things go well and bad for everything.. sometimes good sometimes bad...
needed my sleep, but just seem that no matter how long i sleep, it just doesn't seems to be enough!
body getting weaker but still hanging there, dark rings getting worsen, doesn't seem to shows effects even i sleep early...
tml exam, just wish me good luck so that i dun have to retake module..
it just seems scary and i should be revising now but yet i'm blogging now...
shutting myself today from everyone, not gonna let anyone find me.... no msg, mo call, no watsapp.... the life of nth for today.. not even a call from outlet can make me work..
anw, some things keep running my mind, thinking that should you believe in rumors? the things is i don't think we should even.... i just sometimes find it ridiculous to believe in all these, especially like when someone talking behind your back saying she and he bla bla, i think she like tat guy, all this are just shit man... cases tat i seen at work is different as i know we all joking, and we saying infront and the person just blush and shy.. but we know tat we just joking... but thing tat happen to me was the other way... behind my back, 散布谣言.. so what i'm closed to him? being close to him doesn't mean anything.. and it not a crime.. i treat him as a good fren tat why........ if being close to a oppsite sex mean u like tat person, let me tell u, i think there will have a lot couple wif many relationship going on.... it also shows tat u all are not mature thinking...
i choose not to care abt this, although i din say .. but pls , i'm not blind... i can see wat u all doing behind my back... i choose not to care because this is not true, i can have the courage to stand for myself to face u, but i think u were running from me, u choose to believe them? i don't know and i cant stop u.. the way how u treated me after this incident shows u choose to believe them, u didn't talk much to me after tat because u choose to believe them and it shows tat u cannot face me where this is just rumors.....
i guess i'm ok wif me because i don't blame u, as tat shows tat u all don't really know me well yet... i can be nice and sweet to everyone, to girls or to boys... call u baby dear or even darling i'm alright.. because to me it just a form or addressing, but if u all wan to infer these wrongly.. GO AHEAD <3
over there i prepared to have frens that comes and go...
cheers! :)
